Thursday, November 18, 2004
why izzit so hot?
cos i just watched the oc... haha... benjami mckenzie he's just so hot.... and the four best friends just look so cute together..... he's hot!!!!!
MY GOAL: TO LOSE WEIGHT AND FLY TO AMERICA AND COURT BENJAMIN MCKENZIE.....EVEN THOUGH HE'S 11 YEARS MY SENIOR......A GUY LIKE HIM? HE'S WORTH IT MAN.... HE DOESN'T SEEM LIKE THE FREAKING COCKY TYPE.....SAMANTHA MCKENZIE....HOW'S THAT?
11:03 PM
confession
yeah... it's late now... i should be sleeping...... i am slacking way way too much...... i must slap myself.....i'm useless.....
anyway i love the amazing race... so exciting.... i wonder who will win this time.... i sure do not want the pro wrestlers.... but i noe that they're not going home anytime soon.... i didn't expected the two best friends to be out....anyway... the father of the father daughter team... he so eek
1:12 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
help!!!
anyone out there knows how to add song to blogs???
8:24 PM
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hey hey hey... i suck at using blogspot... so har to use..
diary-x is so much user friendsly... but then agian.... blogspot is so cute.... i've gotta give up one....
life is about decision making.... why does it always have to be either or... why can't i have both.....
i wanna go for the swan... i want a make over... i'm the ugly duckling.... and i do have low self esteem.....
why does it always have to be so unfair in life!?! others out there get to be bor with a silver spoon in their mouths and have lesser worries....
why didn't i wanna binge in the past and suffer the consequences of being fat now???? here's no one to motivate me to excercise... i want a personal trainer to train me...many of my friends say that they wanna lose weight together... but they're are bull shitting....but i can't blame them? why can't i be independent enough???
i hate being fat....i restricted me from doing many things i like...... i can't stand the stares that some people give to over- sized people like me?... why can't i have a superhot figure like kylie minogue(dunno how to spell)? or mischa burton?
why do i always have to be the ugly one.... i hate that.... the fat ugly screwed up lard ball.... i dun even noe myself anymore... i have dreams and aspirations.....but they seem so impossible....i hate being fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz..... we only live once..... i shouldn't be here complaining all my problems... i should be out there working out.....
i promise myself that i must go to the gym... I MUST NOT RELY ON SOMEONE OTHER THAN MYSELF!!!!! COS EVERYONE OUT THERE IS BULL SHIT!!!! REMEMBER THAT!
6:44 PM
