Friday, February 04, 2005
i'm so over myself
k fine i'm so poppular... someone wants to hear my adventures:D
cedar is so freaking irritating..... they chuck like 3 tests the week before chinese new year and 4 tests on the week after chinese new year! wtf! what are the teachers thinking????
k so yeah... i'm owing my teachers homework...... so typical of me... i know...
going out with emma and jean tomoro... just hanging around... unwinding... chilling....
i have to accept the reality that i'm fat..... k.... my brother says i'm pretty if i slim down... he says i have a sharp chin whish is hidden under those think layer of fats??? haha... that vanity factor will be something to motivate me.... the thing about me wanting to lose weight is that i don't have any excersie partner... i noe many people like said that they wanted to lose weight with me but in the end it never happens??? i wanna find someone who likes to work out at the gym? which i think is kinda difficult.... and yeah my hectic stressful life which has taken a toll on me... i'm so lifeless in doing my favourite stuff.... most of the days i just laze around and watch tv....
9:03 PM
Monday, January 31, 2005
late
it's late and i should be in bed.....
to donna: i have low self esteem?
k yeah it's late and i dun feel tired cos i sleep 5 hours in the afternoon?
somehow i just feel more relaxed after enjoying myself yesterday... i like the beach... the sound of the waves is so calm and peaceful.... i got a kind of statisfaction which i won't get going shopping...
somehow nowadays i dun really like the night that much... even though i like the serenity and the quietness but then again i feel empty
even though during the day it's hot and the sun is shining.... it's more lively and crowded
i dun really likie crowds and noise in the past... but somehow i just dun like feeling empty these days... it's scary... i feel alone....
yeah so i like spending time with friends... but then again i'm not socialble.... i envy people like JEAN who can just like TALK.... i can't... there's always this barrier.... so yeah
it's late... i think i should sleep and look forward to the rising sun....
1:06 AM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
party
k i'm dead beat now..... just came back from ethelyn's bbq which i think 13 people turned up excluding her mum dad younger br0 and sis maid and her mum's friend......
k so yeah met jean at compass point..... suppose to meet at 3... she came at like 3.20???? k so after that went to kovan mrt station and meet ethelyn..... saw josias.....dunno how to spell his name.... i think something like that.... correct me if i'm wrong....k... after that took a taxi to loyang point to get food....the supermarket was like half wet market half supermarket.... very packed and queezy.... k so yeah jean i'm sorry to say that you're anti-social cos u are not anywhere close to it!!!!!! maybe in school you sian that's why you seldom talk.... so yeah jean kept on talking to josias:) but whatever... josias is nice, polite, a little charming(not goodlooking.... normal), has a nice smile.... blah blah.... boyfriend material but then he's too good for me anyways....so yeah met her mum at loyang point and she sent us to pasir ris park.... bbq pit K i love you... haha and oh yar... something funny happened..... when ethelyn went to 7-eleven to get ice, the fridge door whacked her head.... hahahhaha:D
k so after that this guy called dustin came and then kok jin(i don't really know his name.... but i think people call him kj?) so yeah at first me jean ethelyn and josias tried starting the fire but then we failed.... then 3 2 other guys came to the rescue! so josias dustin and kj took like 1 hr to light the bbq pit using many equipments to block the wind like borrowing umbrella from other people... and also the first set of chicken wings took like 1 hour plus to cook!.....so yeah later we just basically sat down and chat and crap and ate... we had this ice war between me pamela and amanda.... oh btw amanda is now called... amanda the cute one...haha then we had some chocolate cake smeared on our faces... thanks ethelyn pam and amanda... yeah so during the whole time i for the 5 guys that came i talked to josias the most.... cos he the most sociable unlike the rest they were like playing cards....so yeah i saw this guy called timothy... ethelyn's ex? good looking cut but his character is missing.... maybe because he didn't mingle.... so yeah we just played and chat ... ethelyn's primary school friends were catching up with each other so yeah we just had a great time talking ..... we talked till 11 plus??? it was alot of fun... later ethelyn's parents send us back home.... me and jean sat the van... the rest took the car cause they were going to hougang area... so the parents send us to different places..... was kinda disappointed that i wasn't in the same car as *ahem* haha k.... but whatever he's impossible i know my standards only the ugly people like me.....so yeah ....
now i'm like damn tired..... sleeping soon.... got to get up early to go to the temple..... pray my ancestors.... that time i tried blogging on wed but my long entery got like deleted.....so yeah.... real real tired now.....
*dreams*
i shall stop dreaming for the impossible...
k good night and taas..
11:57 AM
