Tuesday, March 22, 2005
220305
my parents are losers... they take such a fucking long time to decide now every hotel in bintan from the 25-27 is fully booked!!!!! FUCK!!! no bintan, no holiday= can go kill myself.
it's fucking irritating!!!!!!!!!!
shit man!!!!!! they are fuvking incompetent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck shit i've never gone for a holiday since pri. 4 and then i only went to like what genting????
i've never taken a plane before.... yeah me plane NEVER. it's fucking irritating.... now u can see my life sucks.
5:45 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
200305
hey... super bored now... left chinese and e math
will be having a longer weekend this week.. maybe heading to bintan island to chill...
things to do/ get:
- finish undone work
- study a little
- look for a study place since marina mac is no longer possible for now, check out the place my brother told me
- get handphone pouch
- a pouch for mp3
- a hair cut!!!!!
- my first ever bikini (don't want tankini, later tan not nice)
so many things to do but no one to do it with... friends have like ther own other friends, lives and stuff...my friends are basically those in the list in ur right. pathetic huh?
i need to be more independent and not rely on friends maybe try shopping alone which i think is kinda stupid. maybe a movie alone. that's like a good start. i'm like this freaking pathetic person with like little or no traces of a life. GETTING A LIFE, where to start?
i find making friends kinda hard... as in close ones... and it takes alot alot of work to make sure friends dun drift apart.
i think mines kinda drifting...
why can some people make like so many friends... have people fated to make friends with me got hit by a bus??
my life sucks... it would be retarded of some one to actually get jealous of mine...
my brother has got his own group of close friends which the hang out together like 65-100% of the week without fail... and they dun get bored of each other...crapping together as brothers... girls too...
why can't i have ANYTHING like that.
is like my life jinx or something??
seems like it...
what did i do in my previous life...
and if i can't even make friends... i guess my Mr. right never exist.
maybe i should stop thinking so much and just work hard for my future and lead a lonely life... doing things alone... be like super independent...
8:15 PM
