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samantha 17 still defining myself

Saturday, April 16, 2005

continue

for me i like doing things for the exprerience, rush and of course money

3:14 PM

thinking

thinking...

i'm lazy to retype everthing...

<sam>: fuck... i can't get into blogger... k so i'll post my entery here... haha... i always wondered like stuff done in movies like ocean's twelve is true... if it is i wouldn't mind going into that kind of profession...
<sam>: sometimes walking the legal route is hard and slow... i want a taste of fast, rich life... studying sucks... is getting good grades the only way to succeed? if it is i might as well give up on life now...
<sam>: seriously it's not that i'm thinking alot or anything its just that i must start looking at alternate routes to take in life... i truly suck at books... i wanna look for something out there that i'm truly good in...
<sam>: i'm fucking tired with feeling stupid and normal all the time...
<sam>: if only there was someone there to guide me to my rightful path...
<sam>: a nine to five normal paying fucking job is so not for me... as much as i love the feeling of security... i love the taste of freedom more

CONTINUE

haiz... thinking... thinking...

can't remember what i want to add...

there are so many routes to take in life...

1. i wouldn't mind being a criminal... criminal sounds like fuck... delinquent...i wouldn't want to be a small time one cause that's like a bloody waste of time...
2. a great and stressfree happily married woman, living in a villa by the beach (definitaly not in singapore) with a man who loves me as much as i do. taking ocasionally trips together and see the world... do extreme stuff like sky diving... taste the adrenaline. basically being in sync with each other.
3. being a club Dj... enjoying the night life, sleeping in the day... party all the time.

the life i wouldn't wanna have...
being married to a normal fucked up guy... leading the normal life with a nine to five job with two kids... always so busy with work, stressing over money issues... having no personl time for myself... being like this for as long as i live...

I HATE BEING NORMAL

I WANNA BE DIFFERENT
is that really hard to achieve...

i know i contradict myself frequently but as time pasts... i get more specific in the dreams i wanna chase.

meanwhile when i wait for the sign to direct me to the path i take... i shall head back to reality and get on to do my fucked up homework... am i fated to be normal? is there even such a thing as fate... or should i be bold and make my move

2:36 PM

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