Sunday, May 22, 2005
220505
hmm...
1/4 of a month, one week, 7 days... to O levels chinese
preparation... pending... 10%
status... dead
hmm... been thinking alot about the future... a part of me wants to marry my dream guy... and when i talk about guys, i find myself sounding shallow... and realising that my dream guy may never exist. maybe that's why people write romance and adult fiction books... they want to show the world their idea of a great perfect guy or relationship which they can never find... its all in the mind.
oh and the other part wants to work hard and make something out of my life and not be another soul wasting the globe's oxygen... i wanna be the smart, sucessful woman.
yeah so talking about jcs to my brother while playing ps2 today. he said i am nuts to want go to acjc.
one. its far
two. he confirmed my doubt on some people there making friends based on social and financial status. snobs hang with snobs. and also most have their cliques from the AC family, so it will be hard for big me to squeeze in.
three. discipline stricter than most schools. yeah stricter... AC!?!
four. not a very homely jc.
five. i can forget about finding my cute bf there cause my brother clearly stated the fact that i'm neither smart nor pretty.
so he said sajc would be a better choice.
the one one most fuck up thing about sa is that
one. it super near cedar (which means i'll get to see lotsa cedarians which i dun really like... it gives me an eye sore.. haha)
two. since its near cedar alot of cedarians will go there... and most cedarians quite mugger and also fake that they dun study when the drill their books like crazy at home (can't stand these kind of people... its ok to say that one have studied... it will make one sound intellectual.) then slowly but surely it will turn into min cedar... mugger school
three. the reason i can't stand cedarians is the way they behave. like my brother said to me once. so not femine. me too i can't stand the way some act. walking like there's something up their ass. talking very very very loudly... (attributes to all the complains form the public)... somehow acting like an ass.
i keep using they cos i dun associate myself with them even though i'm a cedarian. and i'm only talking about some. not all. some cedaians are really nice like ME! :DDDDDDD
yeah to me my school environment matters alot to me... i've gotta have the perfect school for me...
the one thing i cannnot stand about a person is if he/ she is selfish. selffishness to me is like a huge handicap for that person. he/ she has their left strium and ventricale missing. therefore not being able to function properly and thus leading to self destruction and death. yeah so most of the smart people i know in school are selfish... not gonna mention names. i hope these people just die out..to succeed one must always try to be a team player.
and about cjc, that's my last choice.
so yeah i'll try to work hard in jc... get a scholarship... if possible... and get out of s'pore and live the life i want. life's too short to be loyal, patriotic. * i sound selfish.
anyways i dunno what to do with my life... i do not have a very detailed plan...
maybe i'll take econs math hist bio in jc? if they offer such a combi that it.
my brother said history would be a fun subject. reading about the ancient european history...
he said that i should take law... since i like to argue like crap. haha. i dunnoe what to do in life... so far i've not made any big decisions myself... i take my brothers comments very seriously for he has gone thru the jc life and has many friends from different schools... i analyse the given comment and go along with it if i find that its sensible:D
yeah the future is hazy
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