Friday, March 10, 2006
major crush
I THINK I HAVE A MAJOR CRUSH ON DEVIN.
He is cute, as a hot bod and is nice. as in normally people who are good looking are arrogant and do not talk to or hang out with people like me but he does. I LOVE his smile. Maybe its not a crush. Maybe I do like himJ
but he has already left tpjc for acjc. AWWW. He got in thru swimming.
Anyway I don’t know whether I should beg Brother Paul to let me into cjc. But if I do get into cjc I will pang seh my friends in tpjc. All of us hate it there cause i hate allot of cheena fuckers, mats and minahs. I dun share the same frequency with the type of people mentioned above.
I'M HATING LIFE, trying very hard to love it.
7:51 AM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
feeling way down. hope this ends soon.
to be honest, i prefer acjc to sajc actually. i dunno why.
actually tpjc is quite ok if my current guy friends' appeals fail and are staying there. we made a promise to mug like crazy if we have to stay in tpjc.
anyway i hang around guys alot, i dunno why. it sounds desperate but i'm not. i just love the company of guys. they're real nice to be around with. i feel relaxed. i seldom hang around with the cedarians. i dunno why.
sometimes i don't even realise i'm the only girl in the group( if my other girl freind doesn't join us). i know how it will look like one girl and a group of guys. i will look like some desperate bitch but i'm not. i wish i were a guy.
i feel myself around with my guy friends. i dun feel uptight. we have fun.
i cherish my friends.
3:09 AM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
tpjc
ahhhhh! i hink i'm going to be stuck at tpjc for 2 years. wtf. cjc lowered their cut off again , lowered to 11 i think. OMG what is this world coming too.
why i dislike tpjc:
1) it takes me 50 mins to get to school
2) the environment there damn slack
3) its far from town
4) they dun have the subject combination i want
5) the teachers there doesn't seem good
6) my og is very cheena
why i like tpjc:
1) friends
why i like cjc:
1) near town
2) shorter time travel to school (i think or about the same)
3) got more english guys
tpjc is sian la. emma dun fake me i think acjc confirm got cute guys but u wanna 'an wei' me.
anyway was on my way home form town soem person ask me whether i wanna model for commercials. HAHAH. me model? BIG FAT JOKE. hahah
fuck i'm so pissed today la. tpjc force me to take chemistry, at h2 level some more. that can kill me! i dun even have passion for chem and i won't do well in it. taking h2 is shooting myself in the foot la.
why do fuck up jcs hae fixed combinations? are we too stupid to make up practical combinations? wtf. better jcs do offer biology on its own. what rubbish about needing chem to understand bio. i know bio and chem are link but that is for a small section of bio. DAMN. i'm not stupid k, i just got suay and got A2 for both amy bio, chem, e math and a math. who knows i might only have missed A1 grade by a mark. and my l1r5 could have reduced to 10 and qualify for sajc, which has my subject combination. bloody! lousy jcs treat us like retards man.
anyway real school has started and i'm still skipping lessons. i have no mood to study.
4:03 AM
