Saturday, November 04, 2006
sunday
i'm now at my brother's com, chomping on gunny bears and listening to some house music with some huge comfy headphones. they give great dimension to the song. loves it!
anyway i'm suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of not watching the oc. i feel like re watching it though. so to fill up that empty sapce in my life i've watched john tucker must die and the convanent. i love both shows but prefer the convanent. i mean the story line is great but it lacks somthing. not as nice as the underworld though. i like the convanent because of its theme. its dark witchy-ish, old world stuff which i love. i mean how cool is it to be different. like in the underworld a vampire. to be near immortal.
anyway i'm kinda bored with life. nothing much exciting happening.
and oh chinese a levels was fine. should be able to obtain a grade C. and guess who was sitting beside me. its so distracting. jason. hahha. okay he's some white dude in my school. tall has a nice smile. acording to my chinese class classmate he's a very nice person, goofy and stuff. about his bod i'm not sure. aisyah says his butt is fat though. anyways its so distracting. damn it. if i fail its because of him. hahah. okay he's not that enticing till i'll fail chinese but yeha. i'm just saying. i believe in my chinese abilities.
anyway there's nothing much to do. busy busy busy with nothing. hahah.
I MUST STUDY! be successful and get rich meet perfect men.
bye:)
to kath: good luck for TEE.
10:07 PM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
OCing
anyway instead of studying chinese which i'm not at it yet btw i'm OCing. its super fun. chinese is tomoro all i hope is that i can get at least a C with my standard of chinese.
so i'm now at season 2 of the OC its still quite fun.
to donna: yeah marrisa dies during season season 3. i wonder who is ryan gonna date? anyway i mean if it gets bored in season 4 i hope they stop the production of the show at season 4 and not spoil my impression of the OC. i mean its not good to have too long dramas after a while it justs gets boring. then again there's nothing more to write about as the core 4 gets into college and stuff. so i guess it will end there unless they bring in a whole new cast of babies. hahaha.
i need another drama to follow up OC if not i'll have serious redrawal symptoms like insanity. HAHA. i don't wanna go cold turkey.
hmmm is laguna beach nice?
anyway satying at home for 2 consecutive days is so boring. i'm too lazy to go out. my place is so faraway form civilisation. its has its perks though like the neighbourhood is quite and clean.
anyway i wanna get a hair cut soon. can;t stand my hair now. super messy. i don't think i wanna cut te slop hair u know shorter at the back and longer at the front. cause to have that style i have to make sure my hair is straight at all times and that i need to have more hair.
probably i'll keep it shoulder length and just layer it to have some volume and cut my fringe around nose length. that is such a common look.
anyway its been 3 weeks since my last run. too lazy to exercise. i need new shoes!!!
anyway it turns out that i'm going two places this hols.
cambodia from the 14th till 26th nov
cameron highlands tentatively from the 2nd till 4th dec with my whole family. plus my uncles and stuff. cause the old people of my family( uncles aunt and parents wanna relax( meaning laze around and do nothing and enjoy the cold weather and nice scenary. the stuff old people do and apparantly bore us young people with plantations.) hopefully we can drop by kl to do some shopping and eat!!!!!
so yeah. i'm contemplating whether i should join pilates. cause its like i'll most likely be joinging tuition this dec for two subjects. whihc is like 300 plus a month. that is an additional burden to my parents. actaully i learn alot from my parents and that is if you earn a normal salary do not have 3 kids. or in my opinion no kids at all. if not, my kids will have to suffer like me, which i do no wanna put them thru. suffering in the materialistic sense. not being able to buy stuff all the time, eating at like retaurants every other day, travelling every year. hahha that's me dreaming. i mean i don't wanna be in their plight. i mean their lives are fine other than having three evil children. i bet my parents do max out on cash on certain months. and if any of my parents were do be out of job, my family is screwed. so yeah if i do end up earning a normal pay like 2.5k every month. i will not even get married or even come close to having contact with men. i'll probably work hard to earn and save and get the life i want first. so yeah that's my plan, i mean it sucks leading a normal life i do not see much joy in a simple normal life. like earning a stable income of 2k plus, have a husband, kids, cars, living in a flat and life stays that way for the next 40 years. omg that would suck so bad. i would give uop the hisband and kids for singlehood, seriously. i want a taste of the finer side, explore other countries and cultures travel. i'm afraid of being normal. i mean the hwole thing about marrying a rich man to get rich isn;t such a bad idea but i wanna have my OWN achievements you know. so when i look back in life i know i actually did something out of it and that its not wasted.
did i ever mention in between yaking about men all the time that i don't wanna be in a relationship ever. i mean i do day dream about men. but then again i dont; wanna be in a relationship ever. i try picturing guys in my everyday life that i would date, no one comes to mind. not even dylan ( my not bad looking guy from friendster. hahah i don't know him personally but just think he's cute). maybe i don't wanna date anybody cause no one in my life is suitable? i mena dating sucks or getting married sucks cause its like everything u do u have to make sure that you do not piss of the other party. its a kinda of restriction. and i hate it when i have a gut feeling that someone likes me cause i don't like it how these guys will be nicer to me than other girls and keep talking to me asking me dumb questions. its just gross. back off.
i seriously do not have any prospective boyfriendy men in my life. okay i shall plan for singlehood. start lookiing for retirement homes and planning my trips around the world. the guys in my life now are kinda average or below average. and as i;e mentioned i do not like an average/ nomral life. maybe that's why i'm not attracted to them in the boyfriendy why but as friends they're fine.
okay this is the end of my blabbering nonsense for today. bye:)
i love being single.
3:31 PM
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
feeling much better
i'm OCing like mad. hahha i eat breathe and live the OC. anyway i'm not sure what life will be like without the OC.
anyway i missed my class's beach outing for ocip dance practice. AH! but it may be a blessing in disguise. need to lose weight before a put on a bikini again.
so chinese A levels is this friday and i'm so not prepared. so yeah. anyway is it common for guys to have rough tougher hands than girls? cause will dancing tody there's this couple part, my guy friends hand is rougher and tougher than girls. eww. not nice at all.
so anyway off to doing my work... busy busy busy... anyway i have to start thinking about presents for emma and ejan. i kinda thought of what to get emma already so girls message me when u read this.
till then its OCing! i love dramas. cause its so dramatic! hahah i know its obvious.
tata:) am i gay?
5:44 AM
