Saturday, January 08, 2005
why doesn't anyone seem to care?
just had another shouting and slamming door seesion.... feeling kinda pissed right now.... blasting damn loud trance music now.... i always quarrel with my parents and sister... seldom with my brother... cos one thing he's rarely at home.... k so today i shouted at my mom.... cos.... she freaking stupid... because i was shouting at my sis.....and i didn't start shouting at her first... she raised her voice at me.... how dare she!!!! i hate someone raising theri voice at me when i already freaking stress and exhausted... yeah only one week into the new school year and i'm tired. so as i was saying..... it was about my sis.. she's gotta choose a freaking cca. so yeah i ask her to join either NPCC, judo or air riffle shooting. she that idoit wants.... girl guides, volleyball and netball. i didn't want her to join girl guides cos the no. of guides in her school is very little.... and i know how much guides sucked..... and i noe that it's so not her to join guides.... i noe she fucking regret! like me!!!!
k so about volleyball.... training hours are long and the frequency of training is like 2 times a week. and if like for sports u dun get into school team ... ur CCA points is very little right? and if ur school's volleyball sucks and duin win competitions then u will also not have CCA points right? i'm fine with net ball...... but then again if u join sports u do nothing but running and running and ur leg will get thick and if u dun run they'll become fats right? and my sister has got nice long legs.... her legs are like only about 2 inch shorter than mine but i'm like 11 cm taller than her.... k i'm short.... so yeah...
i wanted her to join judo because they win lots of awards and can also learn how to defend herself cos she's a freaking naive and dosen't seem to have common sense... it's as good as not having a brain. NPCC cos if since she dun mind being in a uniform group. i would rather see her be in NP than guides. guides is so childish and girlish man... i cannot stand it... and about air riffle shooting it's cool man.....
so u would ask what about other cca's ... she doesn't want to join clubs.... she says they're dumb.... quite true... no offence to jean.... ask her join mordern dance dun want.... she learn ballet never put those skills into use..... ask her join guitar ensemble she dun want.... she bought a freaking guitar when she was p5 and now it's left in the store room to rot.... she damn waste money.... from young till now she everytime learn thing learn half way and then end up spending quite a sum of money... and she gives up.... fuck man.... me and my brother from young till now we didn't get to learn much stuff.... i think the only thing i learned was swimming.... my brother swimming and taekwando.... both of which are cheap sports k!!!!!.... i wanted to learn tennis my dad say too ex.... WTF.... this is pure biaseness....
back to my sister... yeah she's now in hougang secondary.... a not very good school..... she say she wants to transfer school after sec1 like me to a better school.....she said that at the begining of this year .... and now??? she's watching freaking tv everyday, slacking like shit.... and i ask her to join a cca with low commitment so she can concentrate on her studies.... and guess whta she said???? so what i wanna join anything my problem.... hougang sec good what!!! i was like ah!!!!! anyway i expected this response from her..... she has always been like that for the past 12 years of her life.... when i told her to study hard and dun slack so much.... she says k... and then i told her sya she'll forget what i say and do the stuff i told her not to do... she says she won't..... k she has done it again....
my parents ask me to let her choose the cca herself.... i'm like are u guys brain dead or something??? if she's realy such a good decision maker.... she wouldn't be what she is now!!!!! life is not always fun... for me i think last time i had to give up the cca sailing which i love so much for my studies..... so really life is about making heartbreaking decisions.... i had my heart broken at that time.... in life we always have to give up something for something else....haiz... for me maybe i'll join sailing back in jc.... or maybe try something else... like rugby of something... butt then my dad dun allow me to join rugby cos he doesn't want me to get a bruised arm... broken nose... dislocated shoulder.... whateva it's my life!!!
anyway about my sister i was jsut helping her to make more sensible choices.... hougang sec???? where can u go after hougang sec??? poly? i'm not against poly but then it's like.... my parents can't afford overseas education and so it's best that we get into a jc which is slightly easier to get into a university.... i dun mean to sound like a total control-freak....
so enough of that fucking brain dead asshole-iotic person....
school is freaking stressful man.. the late nights and eary mornings are killing me!!! but i've gotta perserve..... for my dream i must! i look like a freaking panda without my glasses on.... that's one of the reason why i dun like contacts.... i'm like so stressed cos it's like i trying to get A1s for my langauges which is impossible.... i dun understand how smartass get A1s for chinese???? i looks freaking impossible!!!.... how can a 33 pointer like me get < 10 pointer in the o levels??....so i think i'll shall dive into the sea of hw..... sec 4 life is all about surving in a tsunami. anyway if u guys can, go listen to this song.... flowers in the window by travis... nice:)
2:21 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
school reopens tomoro.......boring
hey......k i went for tuition today.... afterthat i went to suntec and bought 2 jeans from F women.... one which is kinda tight cos it's the last pair and it so darn nice.......it's got these cute little pockets..... went to compass point for a haircut..... i look like a freaking ah lian now!!!!! sorry no offence to ah lians...... then ate at mac...... chicken foldover.... and bought a belt from giodano ....... that's it.... i'm going to watch ocean's eleven.... brad and george os so hot.....
7:56 PM
